Sounds like you are incredibly hard on yourself 💔. I hope you don’t mind me weighing in (if it doesn’t resonate, please ignore).
Okay so the two things you mentioned that were holding you back from breaking free from this relationship that sounds like it’s making you miserable:
- financial dependence
- fear of no one else wanting you
1. Financial dependence - The only real way out of this is figuring out a way to make your own money. This and this alone will empower you so much. Figure out which careers align with your skills and passions and start applying for jobs or pursue the schooling you need.
2. Not good enough - This is a lie in your head. It’s a limiting belief. I promise you that. I am a fan of therapy to unearth who and what programmed you with this limiting belief and an even bigger fan of using NLP and hypnosis for limiting belief reversal.
You got this.